Sunday, June 3, 2012

I hate Nerves!!!

I hate that terrible welling up of nerves that I get sometimes. For two days I did great, Not one panic attack at all. Now today I woke up missing Skylar so much. Looking at my beautiful Skylar made me sad of all that I am missing out on with her. I am afraid to be without my husband and I know he has to work which sucks but he has to do it. I guess this is our new normal life, Forever missing our sweet baby girl. I guess for me it is missing all her movements in my tummy. I wish that we could have had her come home with us. I know she will be our angel forever and I am grateful she is with Jesus. Yet we will always wish she was with us. This blog is a great outlet for me to write my feelings down. Skylar we miss you and love you. Please keep watch over your Daddy and I, Help us to grow closer to God and bless us with another baby. We love you sweetheart.

1 comment:

  1. Hi Melissa,

    I'm so sorry for your loss. It's not a loss that I ever want anyone to know, but I am always thankful that there are others who know my pain. I wish you didn't.

    I'm also glad you started this blog. I have found, through the loss of Joshua, that writing has been so incredibly good for me. I hope you will find healing in your written words.

    If I can ever offer support or help, please don't hesitate to contact me. It has been nearly 2 years since Joshua died, so while I don't know exactly what you are going through, I do know at least some of the pain the that you are experiencing.

    Much love and many prayers,

    Jill

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